Heading Back To D-Town!

So Im heading back to Dettelbach in the morning. Getting on a bus at 8 A.M. No problem I have The Dark Tower Series to accompany me. I started reading the series when I was fifteen. I just last week began it all over again. I wanna read it straight through without the gaps waiting for the next book in the series to be written brings. I find it wonderful that while reading Gunslinger, Drawing of the Three, and Wastelands.... I have been ushered back to visuals in my mind I havent visited in 20 and more years. Reading these books again is akin to watching an old favorite movie. I am struck by the familiarity of the visuals I chose for myself at fifteen. I remember fondly the relationships between characters but see them at a deeper and more profound level than I did in my adolescence. There are some passages I now see subconsciously inspired me with ideas I thought I came up with on my own many years later.

 Ive always loved Roland. He is a western Jedi of sorts. A deeply spiritual master of his craft. He is a consummate improviser. He is fully available in every moment. He has uncanny instincts and insurmountable timing. He forgets nothing and these memories fuel his quest.

 He (Roland and King) reminds me that what I have always found important on my journey never required large sums of money or a nice expensive car or the big house and "fine education" or any of the things society seems to grade its civilians on. I need the guns that feel right in my hand..... to feel like I am "shooting with my finger". I need a balance of time alone on the path and time with friends. Not tons of people..... just the ones who will be a part of my Ka-Tet and teach me their magic and learn from mine. I need to lose. I need to lose badly. And I need to not dwell on loss, but look forward sometimes even blindly towards the goal. But most of all...... I need never truly know what that goal is..... because that in itself will define me...... and ones freedom can be conquered with such knowledge and demand from oneself.

So I will play the trumpet and guitar every day. (my guns)
I will practice german every day. (the new portal into a world with which I am unfamiliar)
I will pay small homage to the past and future and mostly focus on my present (because the present is the path to my Ka).........

but most of all I will  try not to carry the weight of  all the worlds on my shoulders.... so my Tower doesnt own me.